One Big Mess

It seems as though my life has blurred
Into one problem after another.
Everything I do, I fail at.
Everything I touch, I destroy.
All I want to do right now is sit and cry,
But I cannot.
All I need right now is a big hug,
But there's no one there to offer it to me.
You can be nice, sure.
You can pretend all you want,
But you will never understand me fully.
Your comments really only hurt me
And make me feel worse.
All I want to do right now
I find someone perfect.
Someone who totally understands me
And is willing to offer me
Encouragement and support.
But the only person out there
That fully meets my list of requirements
Is myself.
And I can't offer myself anything.
So I sit, sad and lonely,
On my little island of despair.
And who knows if I'll ever make it back home.

Everything is a mess.
I've made a mess of everything.
And all I can do right now
Is watch things fall apart.
I don't know if they'll ever
Piece themselves back together.